Hunger

I wanna fuck! I mean like Hardcore Fuck! Sweat, bodies slapping, belt in action, wet spots all over the sheets, I mean like tear it fucking loose... I have all this excess energy. I don't know if it’s from the summer heat or what. I haven't even been eating, really. And when I do eat, its only because I feel like I'm supposed to, not because I'm actually hungry. I've gone days without eating, and without even realizing it, lately. This heat is burning me inside, and I want it, I don’t care. I haven't been turning on the AC except when people come over, only because I feel as though I should be a good host. Plus when it is on, I feel like I'm in a cave, now I love my little mental caves but I can tell that is NOT what I need right now. I haven't been sleeping all that much, I can't. I go to bed 2, 3, 4 in the morning and I'm up by 9 every day, or the first time my eyes actually crack open, sometimes its 7. I can't stay asleep. I have too much energy. I can feel all this excess fire in me, its like its surrounding me, almost suffocating me. I run around my apartment in circles trying to shake it off. I go out & down to the park at the east river under the Triboro and run, sweat, as long as I can, just to bleed it out. I can do twice as many push ups, at least, as I normally can without an interruption and I still spring up off my feet when I'm done. I'm losing weight without trying to, without even wanting to.. Its seriously fucking with me, freaking me out! This animal within is craving something else, something primal, like I seriously need to fuck like a beast. I haven’t HARDCORE FUCKED in over 2 months, I've had 'yeah yeah yeah’ sex but that just aint gonna cut it right now. I need hardcore, sweat dripping from my chin, 6 loads dropped and still going strong, energizer bunny bang bang bang to the beat of that drum, crazy, passionate, I wanna fuck you like an animal, kinky ass, hardcore fucking animalistic insanity… Like someone riding me with my dick in her ass, hair flying around, hands on heart (hahah), fucking sick craziness… I can’t even jerk off because that would just be me sitting there with my cock in my hand. What the fuck!!!!! AHHH… I'm not sorry, I'm not a pervert, don't start any of that righteous bullshit with me, I'll slice you up, quick like, don't act like you've never felt that hunger, that need to let loose, to push it out, to sweat like a pig… This aint some macho man manifesto 'I need to get laid' rant. This is fucking real, thoughts, fire, poured out to paper (or computer)… I'm not asking for takers, just back up and absorb the reality of the fact that human beings are still, and essentially primal animals… And every so often, we remember that, physically…