By Your Side
To lay by your side
Becoming the intertwining shades of grey
In the shadows between the void
That our naked bodies create
The light that mingles
From your glistening skin
To the surface on my twilight eyes
And all I want is to touch her
To kiss her, make love to her
Passionately.
It’s all I’ve ever wanted
All any man has ever really wanted
Needed.
To disappear in arms and flesh and naked skin
Whenever we can, for as long as we can
Because in those moments alone
Becoming one
It’s this feeling that brings us home
It’s through this embrace that our spirit cries
Only through these moments
That our deepest fears subside
It’s this connection that enables the idea of love
To come to life
But love is not the same
For a man
As it is for a woman
She needs to know I am there
Warm
Ready to accept whatever her heart
Is willing to share
Her fear is not of being alone…
It is only of feeling alone
But I suppose, to her
There is no difference
She doesn’t need a man to be her friend
They rarely understand this concept
Nor its relevance
Much less its importance
Attraction, orgasm, and even the heart’s connection
Are not part of this basic underlying need
It is only how through you
She can achieve that feeling
How she can fill this void of feeling alone
How she can feel secure, held
From moment to next
This is love to her, at best
A man knows in another sort of way
That he could never not be alone
That he could never not feel alone
Although he may desire it
He knows there is no true escape
And so he loves in order to lie to himself
Just enough so that he might actually fool himself
Into believing in it
And often, he does…
This, the most beautiful of troves
But to a woman, this lie
Is forever unable to satisfy
Her heart is then forbidden
Its one loyal ability, the right of denial
And so her heart, in its silence
Creeps, slowly fading away
Even as her loving embraces
Show no inclination of loss in the day to day
But at night, as we sleep
The surface of that mingling light
Illuminates these shadows between
What once were beautiful shades of grey
But these twilight eyes now see through
These moments in time
Where I have been
Simply a warm
Body
By your side
ⓒ 2007 Shawn Michael Quinn
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