Shawn Michael Quinn: 2002.06

Shadows fall upon me 

And kick me from side to side 

Strength becomes the burden 

And I am unable to cry 

I deprive myself of the things I need 

Blessed or cursed by what I'm able to see 

I just want to unplug myself 

And hide in a hole fit perfectly for me 

But I can't pull out 

Too many responsibilities... 

Too many feelings I'm unable to express  

Too many moments alone I'm left  

To think, drown, and feel this hurt 

Sinking further in this little blue world 

Suffocating from these oceans inside 

The way things have turned, and not knowing why 

How do I keep the emotions the same? 

How do I, under these circumstances
Keep from going insane? 

This weight is pulling me under 

And I lack the energy to climb out 

Although I know somehow, someday 

I'll sense the rewards and hopefully say 

It was rough but look at me now 

And at that time, at least, I think she'd be proud 

But right now I just long for the embrace of her arms 

And I realize that people, myself included  

Shawn Michael Quinn