"Jamie Catto and Duncan Bridgeman travelled for 7 months through all 5 continents, and recorded in over 50 locations to create the most inspiring film and album they could imagine. Their mission was not only to gather insights on the huge universal themes of life from the most inspiring and illuminating people they could find, but also to seek out the cream of the world's musicians and compose immense multi-layered music with them."
Solo Roadtrip #1
courtesy of Bruce LEEroy
South through Wilmington DE, Baltimore MD, DC, and Charlottesville VA
day 2: Knoxville, Lexington, Cincinnati, Columbus, and Zanesville, Ohio
day 3: Wheeling WV, Pittsburgh & Harrisburg PA, and Princeton NJ
1600+ miles in 3 days
I know...
So you think that it's over
That your love has finally reached the end
Any time you call, night or day
I'll be right there for you if you need a friend
It's gonna take a little time
Time is sure to mend your broken heart
Don't you even worry, pretty darlin'
I know you'll find love again
Love is all around you
Love is knockin' outside your door
Waitin' for you, this love made just for two
Keep an open heart and you'll find love again, I know
Love is all around you
Love is knockin' outside your door
Waitin' for you, this love made just for two
Keep an open heart and you'll find love again, I know
Love will find a way
Love is gonna find a way, find its way back to you
Love will find a way
So look around, open your eyes
Love is gonna find a way
Love is gonna, love is gonna find a way
Love will find a way, love's gonna find a way back to you
I know
Of Dust & Ancient Shadows
Nothing and everything in a flash it seems
The void and the glow
Of dust and ancient shadows
A thousand memories
Of lives destroyed for the reason of time
And I watch as it passes
Before my eyes that also turn to dust before time
That which existed before time
This universal soul
This ocean of souls within
Without this corporeal lie
I see in and through
Wondrous and inconceivable trials
A gulf of souls
To a land of void
Absent to answers
Dimensions and contradictions
Wind whispers inside the womb
It says absorb and treasure each moment
On your way to the tomb
All this and the space between
Means more than anything
It’s all in the dream
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Piss & Wine
You martyr, you slave
You nail yourself to your fucking cross
You believe yourself to be saved
I’ll crush your ego
I’ll burn down all you believe
I’ll take your pretty horses
I’ll plant the desperate seed
You’re nothing
You’re drenched in piss and wine
Masked by your own contempt
You swim like the swine
Bleeder, you fool, you’re blind
Ignorant to your own demise
You take another step and sink into the mire
Drown in the suffocation
Through your words that grasp your throat
Seek the deep but bleed to me
And reap all that you sow
Teach me your downfalls
Teach me all you could never embrace
Teach me to struggle without purpose
Teach me to worship and praise
Teach me to lie finally with a straight face
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Trembling
This trembling
An inkling to something pre-known
My body shakes
Something revealed to the soul
Awakening, ripening, blistering
I overflow
And you open this door, I know
Someway, somehow
Someday seen before becomes now
My soul trembles
Fear and anxiety overcome
Weighted by words to come
And only the time reveals
What in the past, was concealed
Some connection to
Moments bleeding through
Lived and died
Soul stirred inside
Piercing eyes
Wait, don’t question why
Bleed through it
Do what you have to do
Watch it unfold
Let it become you
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
The Burden
Shadows fall upon me
And kick me from side to side
Strength becomes the burden
And I am unable to cry
I deprive myself of the things I need
Blessed or cursed by what I'm able to see
I just want to unplug myself
And hide in a hole fit perfectly for me
But I can't pull out
Too many responsibilities...
Too many feelings I'm unable to express
Too many moments alone I'm left
To think, drown, and feel this hurt
Sinking further in this little blue world
Suffocating from these oceans inside
The way things have turned, and not knowing why
How do I keep the emotions the same?
How do I, under these circumstances
Keep from going insane?
Keep from going insane?
This weight is pulling me under
And I lack the energy to climb out
Although I know somehow, someday
I'll sense the rewards and hopefully say
It was rough but look at me now
And at that time, at least, I think she'd be proud
But right now I just long for the embrace of her arms
And I realize that people, myself included
Put too much weight.. in being strongⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Goodbye
If I could feel you right now
Like I somehow know soon I will
You would feel this longing
And know I am at peace still
My years came and have since gone
But all those moments in between
Forever, I’ll carry you all with me
My Children, my love, my life, my soul
I will always be with you, I know you know
Throughout my life,
As we all do, I made my mistakes
But for those of you I loved, nothing changed
My time passed by in a flash it seemed
But remember this, if anything
Life is too proud, too short and too fast
We often forget to just shut up and laugh
Tell the ones you love
You love them without fear
Because in the end
That’s all any of us need to hear
If ever a word from me broke your heart
Know they were just words, that’s all
Before we know it, we will meet again
My Children, my love, my life, try if you can
To remember I Love You until then!
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Like I somehow know soon I will
You would feel this longing
And know I am at peace still
My years came and have since gone
But all those moments in between
Forever, I’ll carry you all with me
My Children, my love, my life, my soul
I will always be with you, I know you know
Throughout my life,
As we all do, I made my mistakes
But for those of you I loved, nothing changed
My time passed by in a flash it seemed
But remember this, if anything
Life is too proud, too short and too fast
We often forget to just shut up and laugh
Tell the ones you love
You love them without fear
Because in the end
That’s all any of us need to hear
If ever a word from me broke your heart
Know they were just words, that’s all
Before we know it, we will meet again
My Children, my love, my life, try if you can
To remember I Love You until then!
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Taunting
I can feel you there
Almost close enough to touch
Taunting me with things unable to express
The fact that I know we are all slaves
Beings incapable of change
You taunt and tease me
Because I believe in you
These fears I know are true
As I walk through
Hypnotized but not blind
To the ways of human kind
To my own mistakes before I make them
Unable to throw caution to the wind
My biggest mistake of all maybe
Tortured by the weight of my heart
Heavy with this knowledge
But unable to break apart
These words I read, these secrets I seek
Provide no power for retreat
Nor any weapons of escape
Some way to find terms to come to
I must create
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Freedom
Man’s fear of freedom
Makes him dangerous
Makes him a murderer
Makes him not a man
Men will talk of freedom
But not walk it
Not live it
And will condemn the man who does
For it makes him aware
Of what he’s given up
It makes him unable to live in denial
There is no true freedom with the un-evolved
Those that fear it
Those that know only survival
Only security
Those that know no discipline
No self-control
They destroy and impose beliefs
Destroy and imprison
It is the free that inspire or repulse us
As they say, what we hate, we have denied in ourselves
These choices we make
These lives we fake
The more we live
The more we die
And those who aren’t busy being born
Are busy dying
We’re always busy
Seldom truly living
Either busy being born or busy dying
We learn to let go of the living
We forget to stop and see
What it means to be
Alive and breathing
Waterfalls, butterflies
Sunsets and sunny skies
Star lit nights
Love and new heights
Are you free?
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Every Kiss, Every Embrace
Step back and breathe in
Let go of the trying to win
Let yourself be in the moment, free
To experience what it means
To truly feel your own skin
And each breath you pull in
In this short life
We’ve found ourselves in
No one truly knows why
We’re here or what’s actually past the eye
All we know is what we perceive
Or what we’ve been taught to believe
I’m not sure what is outside of me
But I know I need to be free
Inside this shell or at least in the heart of me
I want to taste every kiss, every embrace
Even if at the end I’ll face
That it was a pointless dream, a waste
The experience is what it makesⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Temptation
"He too had become weary in this house with the decrepit daily servile admonitions: Eat!v Work! Get Married! Eat! Work! Get married!"
"And the petty workday cares which devour the soul; had longed to shake Man from his feet like so much dust and to flee and take refuge in the desert."
"The world of stones, grass and flesh thinned out, became transparent, and the next world appeared behind it, composed of flames and angels."
"Man cannot sprout wings unless he has first reached the brink of the abyss."
"The two voices joined in the young man's heart, and suddenly he felt that all the struggle of mankind was a mockery."
"This world that unfolded before him was God's fairy tale, full of princesses and ogres."
"When the heart takes the uphill road it forgets, and has no mercy."
"You don't fear death, and that's why you speak with such freedom!"
"If I were fire, I would burn. If I were a woodcutter, I would strike. But I am a heart, and I love."
"The people listened to him, and the clay within them turned to wings."
"God always works in this way. Deep in the foundations of wrong he buries the small despised cry of justice."
"Refresh him, Lord, that I may be refreshed. Deliver him, Lord, that I may be delivered. Otherwise I too shall begin to feel the flames."
"And you pious milktoast: you don't murder, steal, or commit adultery - because you are afraid. All your virtues are daughters of fear."
"No, hell with its devils was not in the great pit below the earth; it was in the breasts of men, in the breast of the most virtuous, most just."
"The more devils we have within us, the more chance we have to form angels. 'Angel' is the name we give to repentant devils."
"She had already left shame far behind her, as well as fear of God, love of her father and care about the opinions of men. Scandal had it that her heart was possessed with seven devils, but her heart did not contain seven devils; it contained seven knives."
"Shame is also a temptation."
"Silence is good. It says everything. Silence does not satisfy a woman. Women, poor creatures, need a kind word."
"If God listened to the prayers of mothers we would all rot away in a bog of security and easy living..."
"Stay vigilant, fight, keep the torch of your soul burning day and night. Strike, forge the wings!"
"Courage! Haven't you heard that Paradise is at the heart of the inferno?"
"God will give you the strength, as much as you lack, because it is necessary."
"From the moment that man is born, God shows him the earth, and upon the earth, a city, village, mountain, sea, or desert, and says to him, 'Here you shall wage war!'"
If God is the one who's pushing me to find my murderer, then let me go quickly, and be killed."
"Why are you afraid of death? He is the most merciful of God's arc angels, the one who loves man the most."
"The doors of heaven and hell are adjacent, and identical, both green, both beautiful!"
"God... or was it the devil? Who can tell them apart? They exchange faces, God sometimes becomes all darkness, the devil all light, and the mind of man is left in a muddle."
"God replies every time we question him, but our flesh is bemired and almost deaf: we do not hear."
"He knew that Judas's heart was hard, and that for it to soften, time was needed - time and skill and much love."
"Savage, full of blood, and at the height of despair - - it is where hope begins!"
Yet
I remember each time
It began to feel this way
These precious illusions crumble
With the frailty of my heart
One who expects too much…
“So why haven’t you killed yourself yet?”
She asks me…
She actually asks me this question…
I suppose though
I’ve had many greatest days ever known
“Sorry to disappoint you…
Like you fucking disappoint me”
But like you say
“Two wrongs don’t make a right”
But I can’t recall, as if it mattered
Which came first
Somehow I think it does make a difference
Or at least it should for reasons
Like silence, your silence
But there’s no way to tell you this
Those words have previously fallen to the floor
As well as any possible love for this whore
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
This Then
This distance instilled by eyes opening wide
I can see this energy
And the ways I’ve been blind
Images shatter and crumble to the ground
Words all too familiar and meaningless
Nothing but the sound
I push away and cling to what’s real
Knowing nothing in this world
Should ever be taken for granted
Including what you think you feel
Words and whispers hollow
Shared time and laughter echo
These moments and space between
Sometimes seem to mean nothing
The fool in me falls and believes
Anything heard due to anything dreamed
To know one day it’ll fall like dust
Meaningless love and sacred trust
At that time, I’ll be able to say
I knew this then
And that too will be meaningless
Again
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
Life Bleeds
Blocked energy hidden behind lost words
Emotions that cannot escape
Tears that will not fall
You, I dream of days unseen
Of holding your hand and kissing your cheek
Happy
There’s nothing certain in this world
This I know (oh, the contradictions)
My lover, my killer
My dream, my life
No way of knowing
What pulls us together or why
Can you feel me when I feel like this?
Can you understand my silence?
Can you accept this?
Life bleeds me
Sometimes just by being
I’m not sad, I’m not hurt
I just sometimes feel the world
The good, the bad, the happy, the sad
It’s all me, it’s all God
It’s my moment to feel alive
Dreaming of days
I’m not perceived as insane
Dreaming of a day
When it’s ok to feel this way
So what if there’re tears?
So what if I scream?
So what if I laugh?
So what if I dream?
Do you know what it’s like to be really free?
I don’t need anyone to fix me
I’ve done fine on my own
I’m still here, even when I’m alone
Love, I’m yours
Can you love me unconditionally?
That word you questioned me
That I don’t know if you believe
Can you give that much?
To accept and not judge
That sometimes its what I need
To sit back, feel, and maybe bleed
Don’t let it bring you down
Because I’m not that gone
I’ll be back in time
Refreshed and alive
Reevaluated, stimulated and ready to feed
My little whore, my parasite, everything she needs
Down in that hole
Is where I become whole
Burned but balanced
Removed but aware
It gives me that shine
That you love in my stare
This depth has a price
But it’s mine to pay
I’ve swam in these oceans for years this way
Trust me if you love me
I wouldn’t let you down
Give me this, please understand.
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
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