Blocked energy hidden behind lost words
Emotions that cannot escape
Tears that will not fall
You, I dream of days unseen
Of holding your hand and kissing your cheek
Happy
There’s nothing certain in this world
This I know (oh, the contradictions)
My lover, my killer
My dream, my life
No way of knowing
What pulls us together or why
Can you feel me when I feel like this?
Can you understand my silence?
Can you accept this?
Life bleeds me
Sometimes just by being
I’m not sad, I’m not hurt
I just sometimes feel the world
The good, the bad, the happy, the sad
It’s all me, it’s all God
It’s my moment to feel alive
Dreaming of days
I’m not perceived as insane
Dreaming of a day
When it’s ok to feel this way
So what if there’re tears?
So what if I scream?
So what if I laugh?
So what if I dream?
Do you know what it’s like to be really free?
I don’t need anyone to fix me
I’ve done fine on my own
I’m still here, even when I’m alone
Love, I’m yours
Can you love me unconditionally?
That word you questioned me
That I don’t know if you believe
Can you give that much?
To accept and not judge
That sometimes its what I need
To sit back, feel, and maybe bleed
Don’t let it bring you down
Because I’m not that gone
I’ll be back in time
Refreshed and alive
Reevaluated, stimulated and ready to feed
My little whore, my parasite, everything she needs
Down in that hole
Is where I become whole
Burned but balanced
Removed but aware
It gives me that shine
That you love in my stare
This depth has a price
But it’s mine to pay
I’ve swam in these oceans for years this way
Trust me if you love me
I wouldn’t let you down
Give me this, please understand.
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
ⓒ 2002 Shawn Michael Quinn
