Arizona, Thanksgiving
Another Way
We've been trying something a little different this tour
we've been looking at one of our songs from a different angle
under a different light
so we can hopefully kinda almost see it for the first time
we'd like to try that for you tonight, is that okay?
we're gonna need your help though
we're gonna need your help and your permission
so we need you to find a comfortable space
that is not only comfortable but vulnerable
i want you to shut your eyes and go there
and we'll meet you on the other side........
I saw the gap again today, while you were begging me to stay
Take care not to make me enter. If I do, we both may disappear
Know that I will choke until I swallow
Choke this infant here before me
What is this but my reflection?
Who am I to judge or strike you down?
But you're pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
You still love me, you still love me
But you didn't need to push it on me
You still love me, you still love me
But you didn't need to push it on me
Rest your trigger on my finger
Bang my head upon the fault line
You'd better take care not to make me enter
'Cause if I do, we both may disappear
But you're pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
You still love me, you still love me
But you didn't need to push it on me
You're pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
I'm slipping back into the gap again
I'm alive when you're touching me
Alive when you're shoving me down
But I'd trade it all for just a little peace of mind
Push it on me
You're pushing and shoving and scrambling
Keep my feet down on the ground
I am somewhere I don't wanna be
Push me somewhere I don't wanna be
You put me somewhere I don't wanna be
Seeing someplace I don't wanna see
Never wanna see that place again
I saw that gap again today
While you were begging me to stay
Managed to push myself away
And you as well, my dear
If when I say I might fade like a sigh if I stay
You minimize my movement anyway
I must persuade you another way
Pushing and shoving
Pushing and shoving, pushing me
There's no love in fear
Yeah, I'm staring down the hole again
Hands are on my back again
Survival is my only friend
Terrified of what may come
Remember I'll always love you
As I claw your fucking throat away
But it will end no other way
It will end no other way
Dream It True
Like a storm this rage envelops me
Delivers me to places I didn’t want to be
Shows me mirrors I’ve spent years abandoning
Scares me to the point of no return
Pushes me over the edge
Like the fire inside destroys as it burns
Nothing I wish to embrace
This absence in my face, the level of rage
The drama I’ve given into
Opens doors I have no wish to walk through
I give everything for the string dangling in front of me
Teasing the thought of sanity
I’m lost without the light
Able to lead me back to clarity and sight
My rage is uncontrolled
My anger unparalleled
My hope abandoned
My fists in flight
I must find the way back to love
Let go of the fear
The love you seek lies in there
Let go, walk through, love awaits you
Believe, and dream it true ⓒ 2003 Shawn Michael Quinn
Constructs
"Karma's a word, like 'love' a way of saying 'what I am here to do.' I do not resent my karma. I'm grateful for it, grateful for my wonderful wife, for my beautiful daughter. They are gifts, and so I do what I must do to honor them."
"Why do you do it? Why get up? Why keep fighting? Do you believe you're fighting for something? For more than your survival? Can you tell me what it is? Do you even know? Is it freedom or truth? Perhaps peace? Could it be for love? Illusions, vagaries of perception! Temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without meaning or purpose! And all of them as artificial as the Matrix itself, although only a human mind could invent something as insipid as love! You must be able to see it! You must know it by now! You can't win! It's pointless to keep fighting! Why? Why do you persist? - Because I choose to."
At Our Best
It’s said that our fears manifest
And karma hits us while at our best
To tear down all we hold onto
That which keeps us from growing
And from being free
It takes us as far down as it has to
In order to break our will
To be reborn free through death
If we take it that far
No one escapes it
No one evades it
But still a choice exists
Hidden in the consciousness
It’s the ability to surrender
To let go and succumb
To remember to be humbled
To let go of all we believe we know
So simple it sounds
Yet so difficult for so many of us
I’m given advice to lay low
I remember to be humble
I remember it’s been so long
Since I even considered the concept
Of Humility
My overconfidence, and my will
My fears and my truths
I know now that all will fall
And that in turn I may too
These mistakes before and
In front of me
Will always be
If I die a thousand deaths
Each one will reach the same depth
I am what I am
I came to be via one choice
Here I am to understand
To see through, to understand why
But we can never see past the choices
We do not understand
Or wont accept
But the choice has already been made
ⓒ 2003 Shawn Michael Quinn
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