J, Entry 07272004

If I had something to tell you, that you might think meant something, that might affect you in some way, that might touch you in a way you’ll always remember, in a way that you’ll pause even if only for a moment and forget who you are, were, and was going to be, would you place me on a pedestal or only see me for the beauty each of us possesses?  Would you cherish that contact forever or only take what was given? 

My heart has always ached for that touch, like the souls’ misty envelopes as they pass through each other on the way to express through divine dreams.  Our souls dream on pillows next to Gods.  He kisses their foreheads as they sleep and blows his blessings into their hearts, and then lives and dreams through them.  The souls see with eyeless vision and look upon his love with the admiration of a child living only to manifest his visions and dreams.  When two souls sync the same and catch a taste of frozen time and their eyes meet undescribed, God is the space between and each soul for a moment not alone is entwined again through flesh, heart, and bone with the divine.  Both souls know the touch and bother not to explain but forever hold that moment in time and cherish it, the same.

Tinges Of Fear

Tinges of fear
And gentle touches of faith
What’s in here?
In this space
In this space between
Within the in between pieces of me
I stare into aging eyes
That know no more
Than every year before
Three days before three decades
Flowers die and seeds don’t always grow
Little by little, I learn
There’s nothing more to know
As water touches tin
And drumsticks hold the same rhythm
I’m here in the herein

ⓒ 2004 Shawn Michael Quinn

The Feather

When devastation falls like the feather
You’re left destroyed seeing only its beauty
Knowing you’ll never recover
At peace and bewildered…

ⓒ 2004 Shawn Michael Quinn

Animal Within

This restless energy driving me insane
Can’t purge it, cant satisfy it
Can’t escape it
Must go with it
Drive it, challenge it, embrace it
This energy in me
That craves usage
It doesn’t allow me to
Sit still, read, masturbate, ignore, comatose
I fight it and that’s what it wants
A fight
The animal within
Needs to fight, to hunt
To breathe unclean air, to run
It hunts me because I’m all it can reach
Inside these walls, inside this skin
This still air
Stale stench of wasted sweat
Air-conditioned summer heat
And cabin fever
I’ll wash it all away
Then give it what it wants
True sweat
Animal bleeding out and burning
At both ends, I’ll taste it
As it tastes its life through me

ⓒ 2004 Shawn Michael Quinn