Stone Engraved

"closes his eyes 
and says he's drowning
the palms are reaching out to him
says he's trembling
yesterday and memories
tragedy of loss and greed
all that does not matter
crawl inside this empty hive
and deep inside myself
I find a rebel with a book 
full of tasteless fantasies
runs along the mirror in my heart
thinks mother was a waste of time
life is just a waste of words
need to hold his hand while he's drowning
mother hear him crying
kill his heart, condemn the soul
I see him stare at me
stone engraved
write to me"

~susanna

A Lifetime's Worth of Nostalghia, and fantasies..

Like Lions

Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog

Where no one notices the contrast of white on white

And in between the moon and you, the angels get a better view

Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right

Well, I walk in the air, between the rain

Through myself and back again, where? I don't know

Maria says she's dying, through the door I hear her crying, why, I don't know

'Round here, we always stand up straight

'Round here, something radiates

Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand

She said she'd like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis

And she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land

Just like she's walking on a wire in the circus

She parks her car outside of my house and takes her clothes off

Says she's close to understanding Jesus

And she knows she's more than just a little misunderstood

She has trouble acting normal when she's nervous

'Round here, we're carving out our names

'Round here, we all look the same

'Round here, we talk just like lions, but we sacrifice like lambs

'Round here, she's slipping through my hands

Sleeping children better run like the wind, out of the lightning dream

Mama's little baby better get herself in out of the lightning

She says it's only in my head, she says, shh, I know it's only in my head

But the girl on the car in the parking lot says, man, you should try to take a shot

Can't you see my walls are crumbling?

Then she looks up at the building, says she's thinking of jumping

She says she's tired of life, she must be tired of something 'round here

she's always on my mind, 'round here, hey man, got lots of time

'Round here, we're never sent to bed early, and nobody makes us wait

'Round here, we stay up very, very, very, very late

I, I can't see nothin', nothin' around here

You catch me if I'm fallin', you catch me if I'm fallin'

Will you catch me? 'cause I'm falling down, on you

I said I'm under the gun, 'round here

I'm innocent, I'm under the gun, 'round here

And I can't see nothin', nothin' 'round here

1993 Soundtrack

? day 3

Another day all alone

And can't stop thinking

Always on my mind

And feel like I'm sinking

Drowning in these thoughts

That won't diminish

Have to see her again

Feeling overwhelmed

Like I can't survive this

And I don't know too well

The way she's living

Is what I've been needing,

What she's giving..

Will she be the one to open my eyes

Will she be the voice to answer my cries

And are the words she whispers, true

One day, could real love shine through

Me and you

Were they moments to soon fade away

Am I something she needs, for more than today

Should I just give up, and let her take me

But I know in the end, she'll probably break me

I don't know her that well

She seems true to me

Need to take this slow

And let be what will be

Question, day three..

ⓒ 1993 Shawn Michael Quinn

Holding on.. to the tasteless

There's a flame, flame in my heart
And there's no rain, can put it out
And there's a flame, it's burning in my heart
And there's no rain, ooh can put it out
So just hold me, hold me, hold me..

Take away the pain, inside my soul
And I'm afraid, so all alone
Take away the pain, that's burning in my soul
Cause I'm afraid, that I'll be all alone
So just hold me, hold me, hold me..

Hold on to my heart, to my heart, to me
Hold on to my heart, to my heart, to me
And oh no, don't let me go 
Cause all I am, you hold in your hands
Hold me, and I'll make it through the night
And I'll be alright..
Hold on, hold on to my heart