A Better Hell

Free me
Push me away from all this pain
Pull me close to play what’s a game
Want to die
Want to live
Want to fly
…Wish I could believe
Crying tears that wont go away
Day only days in this hell I make
Frustration…
I cannot escape
Set me free to the other life I could live
Why can’t I be happy in this hell I’ve made for me?
No one to fear
No one to sigh
No one to understand or ask me why
I scream as loud as I can
But I’m the only one that I want to hear
Wish for someone
But push them away as they come near
Fly me courageous
Just a lie
I lie to myself
Death is the question, to die
Is it only a question or the need to know
Maybe the hope to find…
A better hell…

ⓒ 1994 Shawn Michael Quinn