The Gift

I asked to be alone
And then I got my wish
What more could I ask for?
So, I forgot that it felt like this...
Bitterness is loneliness
I can't forgive even when I try
Can't escape this vicious cycle
I can't forget the lies
I dream of the day that I can end it all
Yeah, love conquers everything
And love watched me fall
I had a taste of beauty
It changed everything I knew
It made me a different person
I only wish it had been true

When you've given everything that's inside you
For the gift that everyone deserves
Then find you've been betrayed
You're left with nothing but shattered beliefs
Of real love, and questions of if it can exist
And if you feel like trying to find it
You're left alone with time
Time that you don't know what to do with
Because you can't remember what there was before this "gift"
You're left with the pain of wasted years and wasted love
The pain of knowing that you were naive
And a fool

I do not want this "gift"
It holds nothing for me
But pain, and loss
That have made me bitter
It blinds you
And I want to see

ⓒ 1996 Shawn Michael Quinn